And i do not mean that in a physical way, its more like a mental/emotional kind of loss. Ive been asking a lot of questions, doing a lot of research, and trying a lot of experiments that pertain to a part of something i lost 13 years ago. This explains my lack of uploading anything to Newgrounds, YouTube, most any other social platform and a lot of the cause is because high school sucked before 2010 and i hate acknowledging that its even worse today! But thanks to a classroom fulla jerks thinkin its funny to view me as a murdery crazy person after graduation, finding out this news and running it through my AuDHD brain created an emotional trauma that tore off a vital chunk of my artistic creativity!

It didn't help that good mental health research wasnt plentiful until after 2015, so all i thought to do about that was repression. Which didnt help in the long run, obviously. But now that ive understood the effect of what happened, i gotta say....

I feel motivated to create art once again and i will throw as many tricycles like tomahawks at anyone who tries to stop me as are necessary!

(and yes i do intend to create something about my mental health journey so i can fully process the trauma like any weekend Taco Bell Night. Both get very shitty, you confront your inner demons halfway through, and you think youre on ecstasy after you win the battle!)

Time to fart on with my art on!